It’s all part of being human, this loosing connection. Our hearts open and close like accordions.
We connect and disconnect. We can feel blissfully at one with Source , then forget our connection in the very next moment. It’s near impossible to stay grounded in a world that is so triggering.
I find myself constantly reminding myself, to re-step into my channel, my connection.
When my heart is open I am more than my body and I feel alive, expansive, grateful and at peace within my being.
When I am triggered i feel pinched off, small, retracted and unhappy within my skin.
Sometimes I am out of alignment for hours or days. There has been darker times when I have stepped away from connection for weeks or years. Times I have travelled deep into the dark night of the soul.
When I am out of alignment with Spirit, Divine, Universe (you get what I mean – you may have other words, but I think you can relate) I become ungrounded and the fractured parts of me take charge. I can become weighed down by sadness, overwhelmed by anxiety, frozen in fear, surprise myself as a raging ball of anger or a master manipulator wanting to control what isn’t mine to control.
When I hook into these shadow parts, I have lost self awareness. Mindfulness goes AWOL. I forget to observe and accept the feelings within me as my truth. My mind races away telling me all sorts of mistruths. I forget to be kind to myself. I become the shadow part that has been triggered and I loose connection to my essence.
When I notice, I can choose to breath and harness my mind.
I can consciously open up my channel and call in supportive guides.
I can on purpose pick up my art tools and journal. I can connect through ceremony and meditation. I can shift the energy and release the pain. I can call in back soul fragments.
My heart opens (until it closes again).
Life goes on.